It seems like it never stops, the bad news, different day differrent problem. Does it ever stop? Is death the only release there is?
Today it was bad test results from the doctor, liver function isnt where it is suppose to be, so make appt with another doctor. You see I am suppose to have gastric bypass surgery in August. My by-pass doctor gave me a full page of things I have to do before my surgery date. Blood work was just one of them.
My mom caught her boyfriend of 10 years cheating on her this weekend. My sister is sick, my daighter is sick, my oldest daughter (who I made move out because she is 23 and refuses to pay rent or help out around the house) doesnt speak to me or even ask about me. I live in fear everyday that my husband is going to wake up one day and realize he could do so much better than me. I know he is over worked and stressed out, I cant find work and all the weight of the bills are on him.
I am eatting myself to death, that is what I do, I get stessed I eat, I am sad I eat, I am depressed I eat. I wished I could say "oh when I am stesssed I cant eat a bite" but that isnt me. To tell you the truth I dont know who I am , but I do know I am a child of God. That gives me hope. I feel so alone, I know HE is with me at all times but I feel alone.
How do people do this day after day after day, it seems like forever since I got any great news, or even had a great day. My mind is going in a thousands directions all at one time, how do I make it stop.
